It's not easy being Ted Haggard. The former evangelical preacher and current insurance salesman has had a tumultuous couple years that have seen him kicked out of his church for admitting to a homosexual affair, relegated to bumming around Arizona in a U-Haul and exiled from Colorado. The tough times for Haggard and his family are documented in Alexandra Pelosi's candid upcoming HBO documentary, The Trials of Ted Haggard, which, he tells Newsweek, is "fair and even." Today, things are looking up for Pastor Ted, who has decided forgo a return to preaching in favor of a day job and is coming to terms with his sexuality. "I believe that sexuality is complex and confusing," he said. "I no longer struggle with homosexual compulsions. I still have thoughts from time to time, but they're not powerful thoughts. I still have temptations from time to time, but they're not powerful temptations." Both Haggard and his wife, Gayle, say their 30-year marriage has actually improved in the wake of the scandal.